Nov 10, 2012

A Whore Week

Well, here is another Friday that is about to pass this November, and I have to say that from my perspective this month is still kicking my ass. Last week, Thing 1 contracted impetigo, which is like the daycare version of herpes, as far as I'm concerned. Fucking disgusting germ factories, they are - the institutions and the little people inside them. But this all will soon be a distant memory, however, since they will be stopping daycare in a few short days. Why, you ask?

Ohh, because I lost my job. Ya know, no biggie . . .

I mean, holy motherfucking tripping balls.

I realize that it's nothing too huge in the grand scheme of things and that it happens to families every second of every day, but when it happens to you, it really does feel like a giant kick to your stomach.

Mortgage? Debt repayments? Car? Insurance? Groceries? TWO OF FUCKING EVERYTHING?

We were "just" scraping by and were counting down the days when the boys started "free" school in the fall. Well, didn't that grandiose plan just get flushed down the proverbial shitter? I've been employed continuously since my first job as a golf caddie when I was 12, so I'm not quite sure what to do about this whole "not having a job" thing.

I think I'm meant to cook, clean, take care of the child'ens, and shit, right?

Well, fuck me; that sucks.

I commend anyone that can stay home and happily raise their children, it's hard ass work. I know this, but I've also known that it's never been something I would be good at. I will admit that I love my kids the most when I only see them a limited number of house per day. I love working and creating - it is when I'm my best me. And that's the me that is the best me for my kids to have as a mom.

Does that make sense? I'm going to go ahead and assume you said, "Yes!"

And through fights with my work (who are trying to withhold pay that I've earned), to ruining relationships over a decade old, to realizing we'll have to be eating a lot of 27¢ packets of instant noodles for dinner and could very well lose our home, and my son's face is peeling off into crusty bits, I'm trying to focus on the fact that it's all superficial shit at the end of the day. We'll bounce back, eventually.

And maybe I'll get ripped off for the ump-teenth time by the same douche muppet.
And perhaps we'll have to get a different address.
And I'm sure that Thing 1 will survive.

But my friend around the corner is dying.

So yes, I had a fucktastic week that proceeded to bend me over and ram a fat one up me, but it could be worse. It can always be worse.

"Well, I say we get drunk, because I'm all out of ideas." (Metatron, Dogma)

Yup, it's about that time, folks.

Cheers!



13 comments:

  1. Tough fucking week. Ugh.

    I think your point of knowing what make you your "best you" as a mom is spot on. Well said.

    I'll spare you the platitudes about how things will get better, etc etc. Getting these words down and out is amazing to me... I admire your strength and appreciate your thoughts.

    And the video choice could not have been better ;)

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  2. Ugh that sucks! I'm so sorry. I think the worst part is the fact that there's bad blood. But I can tell you that I was terrified to lose my income when I quit, and we're still here. Life finds a way, and hopefully it's not too terribly hard on you. I hope Thing 1 gets better soon. Hugs.

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  3. You're amazing :)

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  4. Fuck, that really sucks.
    I was going to leave again without leaving a comment, but I have to speak up.
    There is not much advice I can offer - I just want you to know that I am thinking about you and that I truly believe you will get through this.
    Yes, it could be worse and there is some nasty shit happening all over the place, but that does not make what's happening to you any better or any less sucky. It's valid to just say that it sucks ass.
    I don't know your story but I can tell it runs deep. One day at a time, things have their way of working out... xo

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  5. Oh no that really is horrible! I hope everything works out for you guys!

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  6. That's terrible! Tough luck guys. That's some bull life has trapped you with. But life goes on. You can overcome all of that mishaps and stay back on track. Good luck!
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  7. Hugs to you my friend.. It's all I have to offer up.. And prayers.. That is one helluva' week you've had and all of your fears and frustrations are indeed valid.. On the plus side, the impetigo won't last and neither will the rest of this crap but having to go thru it to get to the other side, def. sucks.. At the risk of saying exactly what you don't want to hear at the moment, you will get thru this, it'll be shitty and tough and you'll kick and you'll scream and you'll cry but you will get thru it. Please post if there is anything you need.

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  8. Hugs to you sweetheart. I'm still dealing with being separated from my husband, he left 2 months ago and chose to start dating someone about 5 minutes after the separation papers were signed. At least he's seeing a therapist, as am I....separately.

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  9. Hope you bounce back soon. I know all too well how having the rug pulled out from under you feels when you lose your job.

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  10. Well that just sucks donkey balls. Hopefully (since I'm terribly late posting this) Thing 1 is on the mend already so it's just UI you're dealing with.

    I've done that twice in the past few years: I found taking a couple days (*ahem* or weeks) off to catch up on shit TV and drink/read/etc before starting the big job search helped. But that's just me.

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  11. Oh man, nothing like getting the boot and having to fight for what you are actually owed. Your week has sucked ass.

    For now, just say NO to cheese slices and instant noodles, chat with the people who hold your mortgage and explain the situation and for eff's sake, start planning some playdates so that you don't totally lose your mind being at home.

    Love ya!
    Jenn

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  12. So I finally get round to reading your posts and Geez woman, yep what a stitty week. I'm hoping that since this was written something else came up and turned it all the right way. Been there so no it's no merry go round but and this is a but because it's not good when you're in that state of inbetween but.. you are talented and resourceful and I would pretty much stake my kidney and my liver, (hell you can take your pick of which organs to sell on the black market because I firmly believe you wouldn't have to - yeah it's a bit like a (oh shit can't think of the word but sure as hell ain't a pinky promise) never mind - move on) on the fact that you won't be in this situation for very long. If my kidneys don't do it, I'm sure you will x on a foot note it always gets worse before it gets better - complete pants I know but it does xxxx

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